THANKING YOU FOR GIVING ME SUCH A SOPHISTICATED LIFE BY DESTROYING YOURSELF

While scribing something for you the Sequential euphony of my life is disharmonizing because for the first time I am writing for you, I am doing something for you for the very first time but you are doing everything for me since last 25 years. With tearful eyes am writing for you my hero of life not because of you are my father rather of what you have done and still doing for me.

You are the supreme architecture of your own fate. For you life is not a bed of roses rather it is a bed of thorns. Adversity was a great part of your life which dragged you towards your successful journey of your life which is still continuing with a positive vibration and with a winning attitude of yours. Adversity made you stronger and enough capable to bear the entire crisis you have faced while travelling through the different stages of life in order to make you stronger both mentally and physically.

From UCE Days of yours with a pet name of “Balangir ki Babu”, a mini brain box often known as flying dictionary(which you have already proved that you are really a genius blended with the gifted accomplishment of god with both knowledge and wisdom) and roaming recklessly in your loveable BERLIN CITY (BURLA) to present days you have travelled a long distance with completely metamorphosed thought  and action where your  luck is to you like the quintessence of all inclination to which your sense are completely prisoner of yours own.  

You have sacrificed all your wants and desire to fulfill my dreams and goal by providing me everything without any sense of hesitation. Ground simplicity of yours strikes the essence of your beautiful life. But Incarnation of innocence of yours for everybody at any circumstance makes me annoy because your plethora of innocence made you the victim of some dastardly silent conspiracy against you at earlier dates.  Many times you fail to understand the complexities and complacency of life which is your irony. The captivating smile of yours is a cure of many depressions and darkness of mine.  Thanking you for giving me such a sophisticated life by destroying yourself proud of you.

                                                                                                                                                                                       Kaushik

Horrible Honeymoon

I lived in times which have exuberant and lavish memories filled with opulence and rectitude. But, as every moon has a dark side, time has shown its ugly face through chicanery of people you once felt too close to your heart. As the day passed the scars of the inconclusive battle you fought seems to disappear, but still deep down in the vault of soul lies an evil inside each man belligerent enough to have deleterious effect on your soul. Because you are never meant to hurt someone, you are not motivated by vindictive desires; it is your good part of soul which is quiescent now paving the way for the evil to play its part. Gone are days when you were empathetic and ebullient, these are dark days with dark forces inside you nefariously repugnant. So, you stay still; do not act with impetus, because light will find its way to your heart if your faith is insurmountable.

Limitations of My Life

By this post I will say good bye to an extremely tortuous phase of my life. The way I was prevaricated and the perfidies have crossed their limits. Still the complaisant being within me is demurring my efforts to turn evil. But, that’s me can’t do things to hurt anyone. But when someone you cared so much is evoking intense dislike and being intransigent, you will be in a quagmire as to tell the truth or be in depression. This is what happens when two obstinate people come into a relation whose basic rule is complaisance, loyalty and trust. With even a single breach of trust you have your elephantine ego in front of everything, you crush everything in your path. This is quixotic but love itself is quixotic.  I thank all my friends who tried to mollify me in these darkest of times. But the question remains, how to remove the tenacity towards her backed by a fervent attitude which may exacerbate the situation further?

From my sir to the Hon’ble Vice-chancellor

Dedicated To,
Dr. Manoranjan Kar , Hon'ble Vice-Chancellor OUAT

 “Oh!! Lovely peacock filling the sky
I was once music in the clouds
you dance glee fully with feathers held high
you are the rainbow and I!
The painter”
 

That’s the great song “Mayuri go tuma akasha re” from Arundhati. I was totally spellbound after listening the beautiful song sung in a magnanimous voice by my dearest sir. I was a student of 1^st Year B.Sc. (Ag.) and you were a professor during my first meet with you. When I was a first year student, you stood as a substitute for my parents. When I grew older you assumed the role of a guide, when I was capable to stand on my own feet you assisted me to reach all the mile stones and accomplished the entire goal set for life. During the formative years of life your immense love & affection made me so mature to think upon myself and to plan for my ever-changing careers.

You are the one who made learning an adventure and who can still remember what it’s like to be young and growing up. You made me realise that excellency is within oneself. Someone whom I can really talk to, who really cares what happens to me!! That person is you!! With your guiding hand and ever understanding smile gives much more then I expect. That is your way, your incomparable style. You are the synchronous generator of happiness. You are a genuine admirer of Lord Jaganath’s bhajan & melodious heart-throbbing songs. The ever smiling, exuberant and lively attitude of yours is a cure for many diseases & depression.

From my sir to the apex of OUAT, you have travelled a long distance with your firm optimistic belief & self confidence. For you the old saying “Slow and steady wins the race” sometimes does not find its application. Your great sense of fellow-feeling is always praise worthy for your benevolent helping hand. Once I too read a Japanese proverb that says “Better than a thousand days of diligent study is one day with a great teacher”. Fondly, I can say in a true sense you are the perfect teacher, philosopher and guide. I pray to god to bless you with a long, healthy and cheerful life. Your soothing presence be felt by one and all forever and ever.

 KAUSHIK

On your auspicious birthday

My Dearest

We were just teenagers when we first raise our eyes on each other, and fell endlessly love with one another. It has been a long time since we were started our hide-n-seek. It’s been a journey of fun, good times, respect, admiration, emotions and endless waiting. It’s been a lovely and wonderful journey filled with love, care, fun, fight, misunderstanding, parties & celebration. We have travelled from place to place in search of romantic illusion, dreams to dreams, emotion to emotions and lastly certainty to uncertainty.

We have created life and it’s changed our lives forever. Whatever life throws at us, I will be by your side forever & ever. I really praise you my dear for your unspoken emotion, for keeping all your desires & happiness aside and your benevolent sacrifices for me. When the whole world started pointing finger towards me you the lone optimist, who held my arm & gave me the moral boost up to start my shattered dream one’s again. Though I know what we are doing these days for the betterment of our future is quite unconventional with regards to the customary social taboos & belief. But you are still holding my little finger with a firm optimist belief.

How can I forget those painstaking days of my compulsive post graduation days? Being we were far apart but both of our commitment & faith bonded us more closely than ever. The relationship got a new height of being firmer & stronger than ever. I don’t know what the coming years will hold or what the coming years will yield! I can’t give any guarantee about the coming years but I promise you one thing my sweet heart that you will always be my dream lady, my queen charming and I will be yours.

With Love yours

KAUSHIK

Some Lines for you Sir

“Personality is to man what perfume is to flower”

The mere words of mine may be very unusual and insufficient to describe your personality. Like every student’s dreams of having an advisor like you. You have a great place in the heart of your students. Today is a perfect day to tell that you are not only my sir but also you are standing & holding my hands like my parents. 

You are gifted with a typical intelligent face & possess a cool and charming personality. There is a rhythm of softness in what you say and an art of perfection in what you do. For you the earth is to live in a palace of poetical pleasures. You are a perfect blend of magnetic thinking and academic transients. You are a peerless genius being sentimental and radical. Your company will pump beauty of life to my heart, lubricate my brain with new ideas and remove rust from my mind.

You are gilded with Himalayan patience, silvered with oceanic depth of knowledge & wisdom. A great enthusiast of all social activities, you throw yourself whole heartedly at other’s needs. With a musical personality keen in studying the embroidery of human life, a regular health advisor, lovers of beauty and always bubbles with jokes & subsequent laughter, you got the unique capabilities to tune to any person hailing from any spectrum of life.

The surging and sweeping process of life of yours will attract anyone, the broad & winning smile will tide over, your deep and resonate voice will slam anybody to feel the ecstasy of life. Lastly I found guidance, friendship, discipline and love, everything, in one person and that person is you sir

Happy Birthday Sir.

KAUSHIK KUMAR PANIGRAHI

21^st April 2013(Sunday)

The Last Examination of Ph.D .....

Last semester of my student life has already begun. Tomorrow the last examination of my Ph.D. Life then Thesis after that a prefix of Dr. Kaushik (for which I am waiting from a long time). But my UG exams were really bunches of unforgotten able memory. I am missing my past days with friends. Jiten basically who used to supply Xerox note for me because I didn't have any Xerox. Jiten used to prepare himself from 2Pm for the next day exams but me the back bencher always started reading after 11pm with a whole night study for 7_8 hours. The word revision were absent for me during those days and today also. Again jiten's complained about my marks that how I could able to get 80% marks & more than him by studying less. The exam hall teasing, the vulgarism during entomology and nematodes exam, 2 and half months of composite exam...and so on,many memorise are just flashbacking through my mind when I am studying alone for my Ph.D. No jiten, Sashi, Abinash, Radheshyam, Amit dash, Roomesh & Tiku bhai (Debi Senapati).

Letter from my Elder Brother to me

“FOR YOUR PROFESSIONAL LIFE”
Age 23. Going to submit Ph.D thesis and will be a Dr. soon. Can join as Asst. Professor. Top contender of IFS (not given yet). Already preparing for UPSC. What more you want Kaushik??? It's not Do or Die for you. Calm down your nerves; Breadth well and Concentrate on your strengths. We all have firm belief on your calibre. Remain focused on your strengths and feel the improvements day by day (satisfaction). Expectations from self should match your learning speed. It is good to be serious; but to be desperate for result means killing creativity. "Take your time; Enjoy your preparation; then the journey will be your aim and not just the destination."

“FOR YOUR PERSONAL LIFE”
Don’t get worried much. "Give time some time". God trusts your ability and that's why he has given you this challenge. Don’t project society's weaknesses as yours and for that don’t doubt your values. Remain firm on your values which are accordingly with Truth (Natural Laws) and the Society will one day follow your path. Now that's what called "Ekla Chalo re..."

"BEST OF LABOUR"(Law of Karma)
Sincerely I am very much concerned about you and hence written all these I think best for you. Just keep what you want and discard the rest."Job and Love are part of Life; they are not the heart of life". Life is a different journey. Explore it by Living...Always Living...transcending Death...in the hearts of millions.

Tell me one person who is remembered for his wealth. All Great men are remembered for their wisdom, courage, firm values, reforms for which they have fought enduring pain, sometime shedding their own life and tried to improve life around them. All these are software’s (wisdom, values, courage) which need no money and you have tons of that; then why bother about hardwares (materials).

ADDICTION

I love you very much,

Still I don't know the scale of measurement,

You are my necessity,

I don’t know how I can able to live without you,

People & my parents are against you,

My social taboos & norms are imposing ban on you,

From dusk to dawn you are my way of life.

In Night you are my dream,

You my love I love you more than anything in the world,

I know someday definitely you will kill me,

But still, I love u....Love you.....and love you

Simply you are my "ADDICTION"

I am addicted to you since a long time from my childhood,

But still I am asking myself to whom I Love more than my life

How that fellow going to betray me?

With a name of sweet betrayal know as DEATH.......

How cruel is your motive but still I Love you more than my life...?